Hi im camryn and im 12 years old. i have troubles, with my sister, friends, mom . ha . but I'm different, i dont fit in, I'm too tall, to weird, a lot of people hate me, i dont know why. my best friend, is suicidal, my sister is messed, and i love people too much, because once you become my friend, i wont shut the Fuck up . I'm sometimes really lg, and really rude, because people dont have my life . sometimes, i want to die. because not many people like me, and sometimes i want to die because my life is just retarded . so yeh . i know I'm not perfect like everyone else, i try to except myself as a person, but that's one of the hardest things I've tried . And when i smile, I'm faking it . because really, i want to cry every minute of every day. and what people dont realize, is that i just cant do this anymore . I'm getting bullied, behind my back, and people spread rumors, i have hurt myself before . and people notice so yeh, just thought id let you know, when i say I'm fine, well, you know I'm not . and seriously, you read these story's, and say there are so many, or these sob life story's . but to the people that write them, this is real, i have thought about suicide, and i think every thing will be easier, for me, but I'm also scared of what people will think of me if i live ... and they will think i just did it for attention, but i did it for a easier way to get out. so yeh. thanks for reading ---> now look at my blooogg.